Sunday, November 14, 2004

Depression on SPEAKING of FAITH

I was listening to "Speaking of Faith" this morning on NPR. It was about depression. There was something in it that made me depressed. it was the description of the feeling of depression:

Depression is not sadness. It is better described as fear and sense of being overwhelmed. Also - sense of a lack of vitality, perspective, meaning.

It's really disturbing how closely that describes my feelings surrounding my GUR project. Does this mean my 2 year delay on this is caused by depression? There's a part of me that doesn't shrink from that, but at the same time, I don't feel consumed by it, and depression (as I know from other times that I've been REALLY depressed) consumes your life whole. This project exists in an isolated space in my life that I avoid most of the time. It is tied to my self-worth, but it doesn't have complete control over me.

just some thoughts.


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